|
thelifesmine
 |
|
Thought maybe i should do something more productive like document my thoughts and life instead of doing zuo bo things like looking through my old photos. Okay maybe zuo bo things does suit me more, but I swear the inactivity of writing and speaking accurately is sending my english ability down a rut of singlish and hokkien and mandarin. I'm getting so tongue tied from speaking professionally it's almost embarrassing.
Oh anyway! I've started work for about a week and a half for now, and i must say, i really do love this internship. What a strange way fate has working out for everyone of us because to think back then i wanted to reject this internship. The first week was very relaxed, loads of learning (which i could not retain), networking and introductions. The culture at my dream company is certainly surprisingly non-cut throat and in fact very friendly and open. Have stopped ogling at my company's logo everytime i walk into office and settling into the reality that I am in fact part of this organization i never dreamed i could step into, and now starting to do more real work on the job. Am finding some sort of career direction as well with all the advice, but i guess i will only know after doing next year's internship. But i really do love this job. Time to work harder!! :D
Today i spent my time after work (which is not so much since i knock off later and later) reminiscing the good times and looking through old photos. Then i realized something random: That is it not alone time that we crave and need to be away from others, but it is the ability to escape into your own utopian world of happiness and perfection. I guess i've grown in a way where my imaginative utopian world now holds the down times, because i realize it is precisely the downs that make the ups more precious and more real. Kudos to growing up.
But i still have a long, long way more back to Him. |
|
|
Felt the random urgent need to tidy up my thoughts despite the barrage of things on my to-do list, and the need to rest and recuperate so i can stop coughing my lungs out.
Got back from bkk yesterday, and starting work tomorrow. Bkk was a very different experience because it was about getting around alone. It's kind of easy to move around in BKK though. The mood of the trip was totally dampened because i was sick but it didn't stop me from having loads of fun (at the expense of my health now). Spent most of the trip shopping shopping and shopping more, it was like a marathon so i didn't really get a good rest or relaxation type of holiday, but the shopping was awesome. Think i bought enough for the next year, and i'm not exaggerating. I spent $600 in total on shopping but ended up with like 50 pieces of clothing or something. Really hated the heat of Bangkok though. I need to go back to bkk with a vengeance when i'm healthy to have so much more fun! The trip really helped me take my mind off things though that i am grateful for, and now i can start to prepare for work and the challenges and new experiences ahead. Thank God for making all this possible and bringing me back safely.
I'm starting work tomorrow and i barely feel any excitement/anxiety as opposed to a couple of weeks back where i couldn't wait to start my internship. You'd think they cancel out if you didn't know better. Or wait. Maybe it's the sickness. It probably is. But anyhow if i anticipate or fear this new chapter of my life, i still need to prepare mentally for it.
Just like when i first entered SMU there was so much expectations and pressure to perform it added so much unnecessary stress, i shouldn't put too much pressure on myself to perform. Do everything to the best that i can, don't slack off just because i'm tired or because it doesn't matter and focus on the task on hand. Reserve opinion on people that can be misleading but don't trust or talk too much either. Don't say i don't know, find out! Ask for help less and work more independently unless help is really required.
I |
|
|
As the title suggests. It's a terribly hot day outside and i am glad to be within the comfort of the library with mega air conditioning and comfy chairs. Finished my BP paper this morning which was the third one, leaving just my fiim paper next Wednesday. It's been a tumultuous week thus far, coping with exam stress and dealing objectively with the pain of loss, but i am thankful God has pulled me through and given me the courage to fight through my life. It's certainly been a semester of disappointments with regards to results, but given my level of effort i guess it's solely what i deserve. At these times, we need to tell ourselves to have faith. Since my paper's only 5 days later, and although i've barely begun on studying for it, took a small break today for a good lunch and game session with the girls. I can almost smell summer. :D Okay, time to start revision. |
|
|
It's probably the first time i am blogging in the library which has more-or-less become my battlefield as well as my area of solace for the past 12 weeks. It's certainly amusing to recall how i used to hate the library - well i still hate the deadly silent parts of the library that reek too much of staleness and lifelessness and the dreadful silence that sucks away your enthusiasm for anything at all. Yes i am exaggerating again but well, you get the point. But now that i've come to appreciate the comfortable chairs and the long-hour stability in the library - not to mention large screen computers and a great view at the correct sides of the library, it's certainly been a comforting place to be all semester.
It's hell week now, and my fiim project is so heavy and tough i'm truly at a challenge and at a loss for what to do in the technical aspects. It's due in two days, and i can only try. Booked my trip to Bangkok with best friend and our mum's today, the only sort of comfort of a break in the near future from all this madness.
Till i conquer fiim :D |
|
|
It's the end of the first week of school! Have had so much fun: Monday was pig out session after CAT with boon followed by dinner with boon and sum then dance, met the whole bunch of them for lunch and png for dinner <3, went for french food with B on thursday!
It sounds like an awesome start to the sem, except for the fact that i have not done my cat readings, nor my ma readings, nor my ms ..... pretty much nothing. I can feel my brain struggling to shake off the rust that has rendered my brain immobile after the slack summer.
Desicions have been a big problem lately - finally decided to drop BP two days ago, and to re-bid FT. Whatever happens, i believe from the bottom of my heart that God has His way for me, and i need not worry. I may not see it now, i may not see it tomorrow, but i will definitely see it in the future. Although i feel so uncertain, this is the path he has planned for me, and i will walk, stumble, get up, and carry on with it. I just need more faith to believe.
Took a leap of faith with regards to the Exco, for a non-active member like myself. I can't help but feel that i've been less than honest to myself and to the rest, and if tomorrow's results don't turn out ideal i promise i won't be disappointed. After all, this is part of His plan.
Anyhow, super looking forward to tomorrow's night biking although it's going to be super tiring! I really hope that i won't lose my way, just plain embarrassing to see the freshy trying to lead me back on route.
After, i'd better get down to my studies. Like seriously. (:
|
|
|
It is approaching the end of year one summer! I am excited to get back on track with life, to continue working for my goals. I resent the fact that i will not be able to sleep 10 hours a day, watch dramas endlessly, go out with friends every other day and dance to my heart's content, but i am grateful for the long break year one summer has been. Albeit too long a summer break. I think inertia's going to stop me from studying anytime soon.
Summer has been eventful. So much has happened with the family, the friends, the boyfriend (B for short), and not all has been all pleasant. I've had awesome nights out with the friends, and you guys really did make my summer a smashing one <3. But in all, i guess summer has made me understand myself one step further.
B and i had a huge fight again today, over many things that have happened in the past few weeks. I just can't see where he's coming from, and vice versa. It's come to one point where i've stopped trying to communicate with B because i feel he just doesn't get me, and i've lost so much rationality to talk about things with my head when B attacks things tt are so close to me - i just get so upset. I've tried to talk to him so many times -and failed-, it's no surprise that this time it didn't work out either. But i am not upset typing this, just a huge sense of resignation of what will be will be - and if we are meant to be then we will. There's no point worrying out or getting so upset over the future. I guess it's because of the fact that i see him as my one and only stop in life, and i'm desperate for him to change some things so that we can have our happily ever after, but what the heck, i'm just twenty and in my first serious relationship. I shouldn't be so obstinate about it, and so persistent if the other party doesn't care half as much. I'm happier off taking things as they come. (: But i really hate the double standards B has.
I guess if i were more independent i would choose to let go of this r/s which has become unfortunately toxic in my opinion. Because after all, why hold on to something that hurts? I always use the analogy of the abusive relationship. When it hurts no matter physically or mentally, i believe that people who have a pursuit of happiness should end the pain. But of course that cannot possibly work for every single individual - there will be those who'd rather bear the pain of abuse than that of seperation; it all boils down to relativity and which hurts more.
I guess seperation will hurt me more than i could've imagined in every way. B promised to take care of everything for me, i've become so much less independent. And literally, my life (Schedule wise) will fall to pieces because then i lose dance at the same time as well as the many friends who will be forced to take sides - and to be honest i am not ready to risk all of that. Just for the sake of anger (or spite as some call it). And very obviously, i do not want to regret years later for letting go of the correct person. But B definitely is not acting like who he promised to be. (they all lie, don't they)
Taking it easy and see how things go is probably my best option now. I will also start pulling out the deeply embedded strings in my heart that you implanted 10 months back when you got past all my defenses to make me love you. I will be happy, even if this process is painful.
R/ss are never easy. Each set of them come with their unique problems their permuations are probably infinite. |
|
|
I guess it's only appropriate to seperate the happenings entry from the thoughts post. Yeah, the emo nemo one. Almost all results are released, some pleasant surprises and certainly a fair number of disappointments. Well it's certainly good to know that the numbers don't affect me as much as i thought they would have, aside from the fact that final results aren't out yet and nothing's confirmed, so the element of hope is certainly still a player in this.
I've worked hard(or not so hard) in the four months for the final goal of a number, and now that i'm going to get it, i ask myself, what's next? I mean, i get the gpa, maybe not 4.0 like how i would've loveddd it to be but it's okay because there's always next semester but i mean like, what now? What do i do? Friends around me are working, interning, taking courses, while i'm simply relaxing and enjoying life. Summer felt good until it felt uneasy that i'm not doing anything productive. I guess it'll hit me, like how it always has. And the strange fact is that, i already have the answer for myself. Everytime i ask myself "What am i going to do in university?" "What's my major?" "where do i want to work next time?" and go through an entire freak panic attack, it's like, 5 minutes later my answer is the same for myself everytime: Let it hit you ! This assures me for a week or two, then it's back into repetition. And i completely lost my train of thought because a flying cockroach just flew past me, oh help! 'It' was most certainly not referring to anything like that!
Okay, till the next post. And i don't mean 5 minutes later, really. I'm going to sleep. flying cockroach @#(*&$@#*^$*~!!!!!!!!!! |
|
|
I think smu's been a terrible negative influence on my sleeping hours, even with summer i haven't been sleeping anything earlier than 2am. Well at least i get the luxury of sleeping past noon to wake up to the prickly heat of the afternoon. Sweaty, and unbearable, but nontheless a rediscovered luxury in its own. (: Midnight, or well past midnight blog post on this night/early morning, too energetic and hyped about goodness knows what to fall asleep and join the rest of the normal folks in peaceful slumber. Well, early morning has a certain kind of tranquility no other time of the day brings :P So maybe that excuse is well enough to justify my late sleeping hours. Boyfriend certainly begs to disagree, lol.
Let's see, I left off my last entry at the eventful night at Wala Wala. It was certainly good company, good fun, but i disliked the compact space of the bar where moving around from one place to another is almost shuffling past other bodies, and the tables next door were certainly too close for comfort. Band was awesome, but the enclosed concept and the packed occupancy made it slightly claustrophobic after a while, especially when it was a night out to chill with friends, it didn't really meet the agenda but otherwise re-wrote it as a night of fun! Certainly enjoyed myself, but I guess i'm still a good ole timbre girl.
Met up with the girls today for tea at TWG, ion orchard. I was amazingly the last to arrive (for once) and i guess i shouldn't feel so guilty when those two either pull a fast one and not show up last minute or arrive 2 hours later. Headed over to TWG with the lovely tea cellar decor and the comfortable posh interior. Tea/coffee/hot chocolate really are the most appealing beverages around to me, with the way i splurge on starbucks and expensive coffee and what not. I ended up having sweet france tea(my favourite by far) and scones with tea jelly! I guess floral teas really are my favourite after trying a few types from TWG. Black teas are a little strong and bitter for my taste, while fruity teas more often than not end up too sweet for my tastes. Spent the entire afternoon (a good 3 hours) catching up with the girls talking about everything under the sun from results -what a mood killer- to school, to shopping, to our THREE not one but THREE S95s that appeared 2 seconds after food arrived, to moral values and twitter, it was just awesome hanging out with these people you have endless to talk about. The once-in-a-while pampering experience was simply awesome. I wonder how many trips it'll take for me to try all the teas in that staggeringly long menu. If only there were such thing as a tea buffet. Or a tea sampling buffet. Or whatever that allows me to try everything! Can't wait for the next trip there!
That's about it for the happenings. (: Europe in 11 days!
|
|
|
Yes i shall make writing more consistent so here's me with today's takes. Been having a completely happening summer with action packed back to back whenever i'm not chugging those 8 or more hours of sleep to desperately try to clear my sleep debt. I just hope it'll be on a surplus by the time year two comes along. Feeling significantly more cheerful and happier than yesterday, went out with girlfriend audrey followed by bmtk xlb buffet outing. Remind me please, why i was always skeptical of buffets. I'm definitely not going near one anytime soon, with my small appetite and need for quality food. Catching up with them speaking thai over dinner and laughing over small things brightened my day, though. Caught up with drey too lounging at starbucks and doing random shopping.
Editha went home today, and surprisingly i got rather upset coming home and not having someone knock at my door to pass me fruits, or barley, or ask me if i am hungry and needed food. It just felt strange. I thought that disallowing myself to get attached to her after all the multiple sad partings previously would do the job. Well, apparently it didn't. The times we spent together (rare times albeit) other than me asking her for help form memories, scenes you can't choose to ignore or erase. The times over the past 2 years she would ask me if i were hungry at night even though it was 2am and well past her reasonable working hours, the times where she would help me cover up against my mum to let me do what i wanted, the time recently where i tried to cook and she was there helping me, even if you tried, i guess 2 years is a long time to get attached. Being the sentimental emotional person i am, i guess being upset is inevitable. And i didn't even dare to say goodbye. It's alright i guess though, she'd probably be happier with a better employer elsewhere. (: I can only keep her in prayer, the silent plea of thanks i never got to/dared to say. Be happy, Editha. (:
After Monday's buffet and ballare self prac, and tuesday's USS followed by mahjong, followed by today's series of events, i guess it is time to myself tomorrow to read, write, and probably get some sort of cardio going to prevent the eventual slump into a ball of fat.
Much sought after solace. (:
Till next.
|
|
|
It's been exactly one month into school now, and i think it would be nice to just leave business law hanging -for the moment, i promise- and enter this post. I've been bumbling around the past month too much rushing assignments due the next day and rushing to sleep to stop and think about what i've been doing and reflect on things.
One thing i really need to improve is my time management skills, i guess. That's the only way i can keep my life going and have enough time to study/rest. Lessons wise i think i'm still holding up fine yet i really need to speak up more in class - i still haven't gotten used to that. ): I'm so accustomed to taking things for the way they are and if i have any questions there's no way i'm going to ask it out loud without thinking it through first or consulting friends, this needs time getting used to. More time.
School has been awesome thus far only because of the company. Daily mugging sessions with the bondue people and other friends followed by crazy suppers has really worked to make life in smu fun. XD And i know i have You to thank for all these blessings and all these angels you've sent into my life.
I should really be content. (:
|
|
|
I am finally back blogging after a long hiatus ! Hiatus happened because of many reasons, but i think the main reason was cos of work -and going out with friends- that left very little time to stop and write. Anyway i hope i'll be back for good this time now that work has ended and school is starting!
School is becoming a huge psychological challenge (no i am not a psychopath) with the growing number of things to worry about. I think there's really quite alot to adapt to. I'm pretty afraid of seminar style lessons though i totally knew what i was in for when I chose smu over the other 2 schools; It's just so not-me to actively participate in lessons rather than sit in my own corner and snooze or try and blend into the background.. And i certainly don't want to be one of those people who speak for the sake of class part marks (I totally told myself i'll be so pissed if i do that).
Anw the past week after ORD-ing from RE has been super awesome! Of camps, mambo, overnight mahjong and endless outings with friends and time to slackkkk XD
|
|
|
NINETEEN !
In 20 minutes more, that is. Last year of teenage XD
|
|
|
Past week has been rather awesome! I think i'm getting more and more accustomed to the super-fast pace of life at recuit express, although i'm still as blur as ever at times, like how i sent in a female candidate for a job that required a male to work -.- totally embarrassing, i tell you. Work's nothing short of stressful though, with people screaming at you for interviews, signing contracts to pick up calls and send them resumes and what not, at the end of the day i swear i can still hear the ringing sound of the office telephone. Work aside, the week has been awesome as well. Monday night was dinner out with patrick calvin and cam to celebrate cam's birthdayye! (: Happy nineteenth! We went to timbre at oldschool for dinner. I'm grateful it wasn't one of those swelthering hot nights where you pespire even when you're stationary since timbre was an open-air restaurant. I really liked the atmosphere with the live band and the dim lighting. It's someplace i'll definitely re-visit but not on a night where there's work the following day; we had to leave pretty early because of me ): Patrick drove all of us home again, and cam was like oh! yay i can spend more money at her birthday present. That girl too predictable for her own good XD. Conversation the entire night was as usual 50% attempts to insult each other and the other 50% normal conversation. I am pretty amazed at how we bond using insults. Totally unorthordox if you ask me, but it doesn't matter cos i love this bunch of people all the same. XD  Timbre! Pretty nice place if you ask me (:  Birthday girl ! (: Tuesday night was an amazing night out with the clique! I just feel so comfortable so relaxed when i'm with them(yurui jiawen jolin jean audrey peixuan -ziyun the mia-) and i can be as unglam as i like with them around :P We met at ion orchard and ate at this chinese restaurant for dinner. As usual again, we were talking soo loudly and making a whole lot of noise. Highlights of the night's conversation includes yurui's successful application to medicine -CONGRATS GIRL I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU-, the travel plans which change every 5 mins -.- and goh jo-lin's someone. After dinner we strolled around ion and wheelock and let ourselves be fascinated by chocolates and cards. It's how the company <3 <3 <3 makes doing simple things like these so special. I love the princesses ! On thursday night after work on impromptu i went shopping with charles and spencer, or rather went shopping with spencer's 40% discount coupon for esprit XD Managed to get two tops! 40% off is awesome. Saturday night out with the primary school classmates whom i have not met in 100000 years was awesome as well! Met up with jolene marianne marcia and amanda whom i have not seen in about 4 years other than amanda! Dinner-ed at jack's place, their steak is pretty good, then headed to some bar at somerset called KPO to drink. Rip off expensive i tell you, and the drinks weren't even that good. We had long chats over dinner and drinks though, and it's kind of nice to see how people don't change. Marcia's still as noisy and amusing as ever, lol. Yeap, that pretty much sums up my week's activities other than 9-6 recuit express and slacking at home. I'm looking forward to the new week already! (: |
|
|
End of the week for work! I'm here to post about my first week of work. (:
Let's just say that it's really an experience. First day was completely like, wow ! Everyone was so busy that they couldn't bother with the new temps (zac,alvin and i) for the first couple of hours. When they finally had time to brief us about the job, it was like briefing for 30mins then ZOOM we're in to answering calls and interviewing people for jobs. Pretty nerve wracking, i tell you. Some habits are really hard to kick i realise, and i was like 'HELLO?' when i picked up some calls on the first day which got me scolded LOL. Oh another irksome fact is that i'm using some random name i made up on the spot (Chloe) for work's sake so i totally don't respond to that name.. And people can be like CHLOEEEE CHLOEEE !!! and i'll be like OH it's me ? crap. But i guess it's getting better now. (:
Work pace is insanely fast. There's no time to double check anything so it's a you-better-get-it-right kind of system. Of course i've made blunders over the past week which got kelly(my mentor) staring at me while i squirm on the spot. But in a way it's also good because it's VERY rigorous training for me to multi-task. Now i'm getting better at speaking on the phone while doing some resume or data entry at the same time (: In a way the fast paced work makes time past soo quickly and before i know it it's already time to go home. This in contrast makes work seem so short and rest time so long, so it's a very nice kind of psychological reward after a day of work. Work is like a blur of taking orders over the phone or screaming people, interviewing people in 3 mins and doing resumes under5mins. Everything's about efficiency, man.
In short i think that it's really rewarding in terms of experience, although it's quite dead tiring luh. You can see that when i walk past all my favourite clothes shops after work but i can't spare them a glance because i want to chiong home and rest. haha. Anw i'm going to be on duty on monday! Kelly says it's going to doubly stressful and fast. And Zac's not going to be at work so nobody to help me either. ): I think by the time august comes Uni life is going to seem like honeymoon in comparison, which is not a bad thing at all. (:
Oh i went for my very first driving lesson yesterday ! Driving is excitingg stuff man. Again, super fast paced driving instructor LOL. He just told me about the basic steering wheel motions and the brakes and all for 5 mins then it was me down to the wheel. 5 mins later, it was learning how to turn left and right at junctions. Another 5 mins later, it was making U turns. I am so proud of my squigly U turn XD
Okay, i'm done. (: Going out with the colleagues on monday and the clique ! <3 on tuesday and the beloved pri schl classmates on saturday ! (:
|
|
|
My own guts amazes even myself sometimes, really. When the interviewer told me it's going to be a very difficult and stressful job i actually felt EXCITED. Utterly wrong emotion if you ask me ! Then he asked me: so do you think you can do this job well? I told him" Yes of course, definitely ! OMG. I wonder where that burst of confidence came from. OMGOMG. I am starting to get the jitters now.
For friends who read my blog, i'm going to start working at recuit express starting monday. Wish me luck ! I think i need it :/
|
|
|
Unpacking the half a dozen of cardboard boxes after moving is a pain. In both the literal and figurative sense, that is. Besides dumping out a lot of notes like chem and bio with relish knowing i won't ever have to see them again in my entire life (unless i decide to take some science elective), i also remembered many things whilst clearing old things. It's really somewhat like how the dramas portray it where the object you hold brings back a barrell of memories, and the emotions that come with those memories rush up to engulf you and leave you with a sweet/bitter aftertaste. All i can say is that, it's certainly been a long journey thus far.
|
|
|
I have been shopping insanely much lately after i quit my job because there's just so much time. Let's try and keep track of my loot, althought jo-lin warned me i'll get insanely depressed too after figuring out how much i've spent.
First shopping spree with jo-lin: I bought birkenstocks (110), a blazer (30) and a pair of shoes(i think they were about 35?) oh and another dress (50)
Second shopping spree with cam: I think i bought an eyeliner (20) only. i'm not sure. oh and a dress (20)
Third shopping spree with yiping and zifang: I bought high waisted shorts (60) and a skirt(20)
Fourth shopping spree with mummy: I bought shorts (40) and two new dresses (85)
Fifth shopping spree with mummy: Bought a bag(40) and a shirt (35)
If my math doesn't fail me, i've effectively spent $545 IN THE LAST TWO WEEKENDS. omgawsh. jo-lin is right. i feel utterly depressed now. ):
|
|
|
I've got loads to put into perspective now, with the overwhelming good news. (: First and foremost i have You to thank for creating the miracles over and over again for me. It's truly the work of Your hand.
It's certainly been a month of good and bad news. I've been disappointed getting rejected by some organisation scholarships, been restless waiting for that one call or one email (which brought me so much joy when it FINALLY came) and been over the moon when i realise i'm going to be a scholar. Wow. That just seems abit too much to absorb for a perfectly ordinary girl like myself, with a bit of a bad temper and just some quick wit to get myself out of sticky situations.
My friend is feeling relieved that she's finally gotten her scholarship and will not need to fret over other scholarship interviews in the next few weeks. I share those sentiments, yet i can't help but feel a sense of trepidation with what's to come in the next 4 years. Do they expect me to be drop dead smart with razor sharp business accument? Do they expect me to be an overachiever doing internships from year one and participating in every upcoming competition? i cannot help but fear the weight of expectations that is to come, and that will stay with me for the next 4 years. After all, i've never been absolutely academically brilliant. I guess it's going to be a really challenging experience, and i'm excited about that. (:
One more thing to put into perspective is my own attitude. With all the prestige of being a straight A student and a 'scholar' i wonder how much of my attitude is going to change. I've certainly noticed a few minor changes in the way i speak these few days. I just need to constantly ground myself and remain as my down-to-earth self. Because stress and reality will catch up with you soon enough anyway : P
I sense this is going to be one of the biggest challenges in my life. I'm going to have to experience a change in studying environment in terms of locations, in terms of the way lessons are taught (i'm certainly dubious about my own ability to speak up in those interactive lessons), in terms of the level of competitiveness -no more friends to be there for you patiently- and in terms of the quality of work i need to produce -again, scholar-worthy?-
But i know above all this fear and doubts, You will be there to lead my path to You like you have been doing for me all this while. All above all, i just need to keep my faith and i'll be fine. (:
|
|
|
Okay, interview came and went without news. I probably didn't make the cut. Disappointed as i am, sad, dejected, or what not, i just need to focus for my next interview. It makes me wonder if God is trying to indicate that i'm not business material and my path lies in somewhere i have more interest. I wonder what's Your plan for me. |
|
|
Okay. LKCSP interview tomorrow which is also an interview for smu scholarship and the rest. USP interview scheduled for 4may. All the best to myself ! I've been taken to watching the apprentice in the past 2 days, finished the entire season 5. I have some thoughts on season 5.
One, that the self-selling at the beginning where everyone believes they're 'the best', i didn't quite know how to react to that. Is that mandatory as a requirement to become a great businessman? I certainly thought it came off as being arrogant. Well it definitely proves that myself thinking of business people as down to earth risk takers as completely wrong. I have to admit though, that i was sold by this talk ! But it's just the first episode of the apprentice i'm watching so i don't think i'll be sold by similar tactics if i watched another season. It just seems abit, over, for me. Perhaps for the dramatic effects to guarantee the viewer ratings, i don't know. Yes actually i'll take it to be the case. It's just inconceivable in my opinion to have people selling themselves so dramatically lol. -or maybe my lack of insight-
From the first episode, the guy who really caught my eye was phillip. I don't know if it's got to do with his looks of what haha, but his natural speech ability during his presentations and negotiations really made me think that he could be the next apprentice. I thought his innovation with the health product was spectacular as well. Yet, he i would say was arrogant that lead to many conflicts with team members.
Yasmina was the next to catch my eye and i'm really happy she won! I think she has a great way of working with people not to mention she's got a clear aim as to what she wants to achieve.
Good show? I learnt some things from it, yet i thought the incessant justifications -which cam across to be as bickering- especially when it was trying to get the blame off oneself was really not something i looked forward to. I liked going through the process of the tasks and yes, i will watch another season ! Hopefully this time i'm going to have better judgement (:
|
|
|
I am really banking of an overnight -literally- miracle to happen. I have NONE of the qualities other than academic credit to put myself in the running for the smu scholarships. I'm not outspoken with a crowd, i have no business knowledge - and no business sense to add to the dismal-ity(if there was such a word) to boot. I'm not a great innovator - the most i can do is to repackage an old idea to make it look new; And i'm not a leader despite what my resume might indicate.
One day. I'm trying.
|
|
|
Continued from yesterday's post, haha. I was too sleepy last night to register much. Anyway back to Mao's last dancer - I thought i was an awesome movie. The beautiful dance scenes with the excellent dancers with beautiful extensions and what not totally won me over. With the limited screen time i thought the scene selection was well done, yet i think that it would've been hard for someone who hasn't read the book to make the links between the flashbacks, and some random scenes like the archer where Li thinks of his determination. I thought it was a very good summary of the book - though i would've certainly loved for the movie to be longer and for more details to be included. To a person who did not read the book previously, i suppose it would come across as a cliched story; from a poor young peasant boy into a internationally acclaimed dancer with his fairytale ending. The movie i thought failed to convey concepts like the freedom that came along with his dancing opportunity as compared to his second brother who was 'caged' to a life of hard work and a marriage not of his choice - the conversation cunxin and his second brother had really left an impression on me.
And of course - the last scene which already threatened to leave me in tears whilst i was reading the book was utterly heart-wrenching. I was trying very hard to hold in my tears to try and prevent my eyeliner from smudging but they just started dripping down my face - i had to ask fang for tissue. We were the only ones in the cinema crying, i'm guessing so because we previously read the book where we -felt- Li's pain in many areas from leaving his family to hating then loving dance; The movie time just wasn't adaquete to do all those little details that make his success really spectacular -and not expected and cliched- justice.
So in conclusion, read the book first before watching the show, it makes a much much greater impact -should've seen the sobbing mess i was-. But great great show nonetheless, i really enjoyed it. <3
Please directors, make more great dance movies like these !
|
|
|
Yeah the title says it all (: Watched Chicago yesterday night at the esplanade with audrey and zifang. I was the latest in meeting both of them whoops ): Followed our usual ichiban tradition and ate sushi.
Chicago, in one word, was Awesome. I can certainly see why it has been one of the longest standing musicals over the past decades. The stage arrangement was just simply ingenious to place the band on stage to compromise for the lack of performers. I was thoroughly impressed by how they made the entire production look so grand with less than 20 performers. From the opening act, 'All that jazz' i was just captivated by the wonderful costumes, music, the performer's voices and dancing, props. It was simply mesmerising with the stage charisma of the performers drawing you in and leaving you nothing short of impressed. Brilliant music and singing for both acts. Not to mention the highly entertaining storyline - it's quirky, humorous and sarcastic. Very different from a musical like les miserables (both are equally awesome in their own rights) and it was really refreshing (: Kudos to all the performers ! Bravo !
|
|
|
I've just finished reading Mao's Last Dancer.
 Bought it two days ago from the concept store in ion orchard. Lovely bookstore (:
Spending two nights away slouching like a weird position on my bed or my couch reading the book really reminds me of the luxury of time. No work to rush for, no interview presentations to fret over, just peaceful reading and some light music. Life is treating me good (:
I have to say i didn't think much of the book when i first started reading (or more of what was to come) because of the simple sentence structures and lack of colourful vocabulary. I could not be more ashamed of my own superficiality. It was an excellent read, i conclude. Li's emotions throughout the years, from frustration, ignorance and joyful childhood moments were vividly put across to the betrayal he felt from the state and the consequent happiness he found in his long lost family and his newly established one. The book often left me in bolts of emotion. I was expecting a typical story of how a young boy fell in love with dancing, yet was halted by difficulties(in this case, the country's restrictions.) Yet, it was surprisingly not the case. Li's fuel to dance originated from his love for his parents, which made him endure 6 long harsh years at the beijing dance academy, enduring pain, injury and even humiliation. I cannot imagine how Li at age 11 could be so brave, and it brings tremors to my lips to think that it is a true story. I am delighted to know that Li got his fairytale ending, and i wish this admirable man all the best !
Now, let's look forward to the movie. (:
|
|
|
Hello blog.
I went shopping today. I bought a new dress from river island which was really cheap considering it's river island but i realised that they compromised on their cloth quality which makes it feel like a 20 dollar dress you can find from bugis. (The design is pretty typical as well) I guess the nice trimmings and cutting makes up for the remaining 30 dollars, as well as the brand of course. I got rather miffed at birkenstocks for not carrying my size in the designs i really liked; but oh well it happens and it's not really their fault that i have a common foot size, hahaha.
Star buy of the day was the book mao's last dancer which i am going to start reading right after finishing this post ! I rarely spend on books, but somehow i feel -and hope- this is going to be worthwhile. Just looking at the contents page alone makes me feel happy (:
Okay, off to read ! Pw outing tomorrow (:
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1){kind=small}
thelifesmine's journal